This is a post by the lovely Sarah she lives and breathes a holistic lifestyle; I am honored to have her post here today- I hope you guys enjoy it!
Opportunity to Love Ourselves
Last night I woke up at 4am. I had a restless sleep and kept going in and out of a dream, until I finally shook myself awake and looked at the clock. That space in the middle of the night- before sunrise, in the silence of a city that is sleeping – is a time of solitude, a time to delve into the world of connecting with self. I love that time.
But, not last night. Upon waking I realized that my hands were incredibly itchy and my whole body was swollen. I quickly realized that the physical discomfort was actually what had disturbed my sleep and I was having an allergic reaction. My mind was running mad- why is this happening? What did I eat? Is my throat going to close up? Oh my god, what if I have to go to the hospital? What if this is really serious? The usual stream of fearful questions started racing.
And then I paused for a moment. I was afraid and alone in the dark. Such a familiar sensation- throwing me back to the days of when I woke up terrified in the middle of the night as a little girl, worried that someone was going to break into the window.
And then I checked in with myself. I was breathing. I was able to get up and walk around. I was just experiencing the bodily sensations of being itchy and swollen.
And then I asked myself a question- what is this teaching me? What is this experience shining light on? My body was on overload. I was stressed out emotionally, mentally, spiritually and definitely physically- so many things were being uprooted in my life and being turned upside down. And so my body was so perfectly reminding me to pay attention…to slow down…to rest…to feed myself pure, wholesome, clean foods…to allow the pain and sadness to be experienced.
Illness shows up so that we have the opportunity to love ourselves more. It is in those moments of darkness that we have the opportunity to cultivate being comforting, nourishing, and patient. This is bringing the practice of yoga to every day life. Continue Reading